This week's wedding was the opportunity for me to channel my mind to a different focus other than the woman I spent the past 2 1/2 years of my life with. Her funeral was today, yet I'm in MD photographing a wedding. Is that selfish of me? Should i feel guilty? Many emotions take hold of me right now as I get through the toughest ordeal that I've ever been faced with. I made it through Hurricane Katrina, kidney stones for the 5th time just a couple of weeks ago, and even being blamed for my own house fire!
Arnita was such a sweet spirited person. She was responsible for making me a better person in many ways and she's not here for me to let her know.
I haven't spoken about my ordeal much since it began 2 short months ago because it's something one can never prepare for nor be prepared to deal with. I carry her with me everywhere I go and I will try to exemplify what she has taught me to be.
I really hope she is able to read my mind and see my thoughts where she is. I hope she sees how much she is truly missed and I pray for all the comfort that God can bring to her family.
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